10 things you want to tell 10 different people right now. (from aya's page :p)

(of course no name dropping duh, defeats the purpose.. hehe halatang bored ako sa bahay..)

10. you must be tired by now, i can feel it. I hope our company can at least brighten up your days.

9. Sometimes you annoy me but when i think about it, I realize you are actually one of my treasured friends.

8. You look happy now, it's a good thing you took on a positive outlook in life even after that storm - which was a blessing in disguise.

7. thank you for being nice to me, it's really nice to find new friends like you.

6. thank you for treating me like a colleague, a friend and at the same time a student.

5. quit getting on my nerves!

4. hey can I at least get some support? I'm working my butt off here..

3. sorry for dragging you into our little girly issues, unfortunately I can't do anything about it but i swear it is just a joke. a big joke.

2. have you heard of the word 'saturation'? i think not, but pls. when will you get over it.

1. HOY MATULOG KA NA NGA!!! (alter ego hahaha, la na kasi ako maisip)

enewei, may post ako about flag day and koreanovela update pero nasa flash disk at mejo nawawala siya hehe hhnapin ko muna. oh and jayc.. ung denr pics, post ko pag na resize ko na images :p sori tagal hehe..

o ayan ha sa lahat ng nag-tag saakin, pinatulan ko na yung tag tag na yan. para kay cha, daryl, jayc, nikki at kung sino pa na nag yag sakin ayan na po. hehe :p

The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy!

Then tag 10 people and force them to post this on their blogs. (di na ako mang-tag, let the stupid chain end with me buwahahaha, mgf??)

1. I finished na my ojt with a big smile on my face, and with all the articles that i was able to publish.

2. i got in touch with ykc, kinda missed them kasi e. their messages are enough.

3. binili ako ni mami at dadi nung mac sandwich case. tpos araw araw pag inoopen ko un may naka prepare na sandwich :)

4. i met new people sa v, at sooobrang saya dun talaga grabe. (over sa adjectives hehe)

5. grabe tlga mga eperience ko sa ojt, unforgettable, eye-opening etc.

6. enrollment day was a breeze..kakapanibago hehe

7. note: pwede bang 6 na lang? kasi dahil lagi akong masaya di ko na madifferentiate kung ano ung mga certain things na ikinasaya ko hehe.. bsta masaya ang buhay ko, period. :p

8 things they probably don't know about you:

1. matakaw ako, di lang halata

2. adik ako sa rpg games, gusto ko maglaro ng nba live pati dota.

3. hanggang ngaun fan parin ako ni britney spears (huwaaaat?!)

4. madami na akong nagulpi na lalake from elementary to highschool haha

5. wala akong crush na totoong tao. totoo un.

6. iniyakan ko ng halos isang linggo ang cardcaptor sakura nung matapos ung season 1 dati. baket? kasi hindi sila nagkatuluyan ni shaoran dahil bata pa sila.

7. kahit sinigang ipaulam mo sakin araw araw ok lang. hehe

8. i hate chain posts hahahaha

ano pa ba? hmm wala na nalimot ko na ung ibang versions ng tag. ayan ha..

First of all, I want to apologize for causing a scene a while ago. The last thing I would want to happen is for people to think na “mahadera” ako para maginarte diba. Sorry if I seem narrow minded, just got caught in a mix of emotions.

I’m just ashamed of myself, I can’t help but feel that I was demoted. I know you keep trying to explain to me that there are no sections ranking. Actually, it is starting to sink in to me now that there really is none. But still, I’m deeply bothered by this.

Circle was my first choice because I thought that it was a good idea to write hard and soft at the same time. Academic subjects are more on hard news so I wanted to do light write-ups about arts and culture. Although, nangangapa pa lang ako sa section na yun, I was enjoying it kaya oks lang.

Imagine I was so enthusiastic about it that I began checking the arts and culture section of all the daily broadsheets for possible stories ever since I got admitted to circle.

It came to me as a surprise that I was moved to the witness section but I want to clarify that I have nothing against the witness writers and the section itself. It is just that “witness writing” is totally alien to me. Clueless ako and I am not into the church beat. Oo religious ako pero I don’t think I’m up for it.

So ano ba ang iniinarte ko? Ang saakin lang, it’s hard to do something you’re not interested in. I have to endure writing about things that I don’t fully care about aside for the sake of fulfilling my duties as a staffer.

At first I was very excited about writing for the v but after this thing came up I pondered and realized that things will be very hard for me.

Demoted? Yes I think so. I can’t help but think that this was what happened. First, I never believed in my writing skills, I’m not even sure if I can really write. I have really low self-esteem, a reason why I did not join my friends when they tried out for the hiring of summer staff 2007. imagine I only got 77 for the specialized exams, to think that the highest was like 84? This is so shameful, I am a journ student and I am in my senior year and that is all I can get? I tried to brush that thought off but I can’t help thinking that maybe this is a wake-up call to me, that I’m not fit for this. Maybe I was just too ambitious and such a crappy writer.

Anyway, it seems like I have no choice but to get on with it. See, quitting also came to my mind but I remembered that my admission to the v was a reason why my friends stayed, so leaving would be unfair to them. I owe them a lot. Sorry that I cried, I just can’t help it although I tried my best not to but when people started talking to me and comforting, my eyes just welled-up without my consent.

I wanted to cry some more tonight but I can’t let anyone in the house see that I am sad because they will order me to quit. I always have to pretend that I am happy with all the decisions that I make, so I have to put up a face when I arrived and told them that the v staff had a celebration and we ate so many delectable courses that is why I came home late.

Ok this is getting a bit dragging. Too long for a post but seeing that you made it till here, I guess you’re pissed off by now. So pardon the drama and sincerity. Don’t worry by tomorrow it’ll seem that nothing happened. Not even a trace of it.

To my former section co-writers thanks sa sobrang short time hehe. Huy aya may story akong nahanap para sau text nalang kita hehe may utang pa akong story sau diba. Buti nalang nag ka collab tau bago ako nalipat. :p

finally..nakabalik ako sa multiply! grabe sobrang wala na ako sa circulation, ano na ba ang mga latest posts na controversial? ano na? ano?? ano na mga narcissistic posts nio mga pipol? hui i-brief nio naman ako kasi may mga flooder na puro photos lang naman pala ang update ayun natabunan na ung mga may sense na post eh xmpre masipag ako tinatamad n ako bshin lhat... cge na kahit naka bullet form sbhin nio naman sken ung mga napost dito..

since wala n ako ggwin mkkpag multiply n ako! yay! try ko nlng magpost bka mmyang gabi, pero pls kwentuhan nio naman ako hehehe tnx in advance! mwah! :p

because i am one too. panong di ka magiging weird kung lahat ng tao na nakapaligid sayo may kanya kanyang ka-weirdu-han (and if you happen to be reading this, it's as good as saying you are one too..)

these are just random weird stuffs i have encountered during the week or last week or as far as i can remember last month.

my friend tina made up some tabloid headlines,

-"divino, anak ni totoy mola"
-"parak binoga ang kulasisi"
-"pichay pinulot sa kankungan"
-"sotto nabulaga"
-"mike defensor naGROgi at tumaob"
-"babae binorocha ng pintor"

that is how creative her mind works, and just so you know she is the infamous sender of green messages to everyone.

my grade six cousin shane texted my sister with this message:

ate kamusta na ung pwet ko? (referring to my sister's face, read: her butt and my sister's face looks the same. but of course my sister is pretty) ingatan mo ung pwet ko ha.

when we went to caleruega my dad bombarded my phone with several missed calls and messages asking how i am doing.. because he thought i joined a different varistarian, the one that does hazings. and he imagined me involved in a hazing? kmusta naman un? yah i have fraternity/sorority records but hey it's not as if i'd seriously join one?!

my sister and i can talk nonesense for hours. like talk about killing a cockroach and insert moral, ethical, and yes political stuff in the conversation. we can also do baby talk over a brand of milk without laughing. thinking that "this is one intelligent and serious conversation."

see i don't eat siopao bec i believe that it is made out of cats. except asado which i believed was the only one made of pork. so one day i ordered asado. after i finished it i said hmm sarap daddy! sabi nia o tlga kala ko di mo magugustuhan kasi bola-bola yan. anak ng..

I can't think of anything else and i'm suppose to end this entry, but then my kuya exclaimed just now, as he is playing an rpg game across me.

"Sabi ko na nga ba eh! (imagine the face, astonished na astonished siya) kadugtong toh ng silent hill 1 at 2 eh! grabe ang galing magkadugtong ung kwento! galing talaga!" i gave him the most sarcastic look. duh? kuya doesn't the label read silent hill 3??? it means it really is a continuation? tyaka the fact na nasa silent hill 3 ka na ibig sabihin nalaman mo na nung nilaro mo ung 2 na magkakadugtong ang kwento.

ay naku nakakaloka talaga. how would people expect me to be sane, when i have all these insane people around me.

Kuya retorted stupidly after seeing that i again bought a pair of jeans, "parang tanga to bili ng bili ng damit, kala mo andaming pera, wala ka ngang trabaho jan eh at least ako meron." yung mga taong tulad ni kuya di pinapatulan. i did not answer back but my answer to that is because i'm a girl..

yes, girls are "get-up conscious." especially now that I have to come to work everyday, which means i have to avoid wearing the same outfits over and over again. shallow as it seems, this is a problem for me. I have this thing about wearing the same thing that people have already seen before. it's stupid i know, i know you don't have to remind me, no one really cares right? but i don't know, it's just.....hmm...just like that.

which brings me to wearing high-heeled shoes,they look gorgeous but they really hurt. but as i have read in a column, "the vain don't complain." the things women suffer for fashion. anyway, those are just little things it's still better to be a girl than be a guy?!

i mean guys are ultimately insensitive poeple who can't read beyond statements. they have this basic understanding of things. what he heard you said is what it is. like looking at street signs go straight, u-turn, dead end yada yada yada. and they are unhygienic? my brother's room, it stinks i don't know why. and they are naturally messy people. they leave their shoes in the sala. the used socks left hanging on the bed header? they leave the table as it is after they dine, can't even put the plates on the sink? i mean don't they have hands?

i'm also sick of their inferiority complexes and their egos blech.. oh and their useless spending for clothes that look exactly the same??? unlike girls who are given the wide array of style options guys have to stick with the shirt-pants tandem, spell boring. anyway, guys also have this character of feeling superior and wanted? i remember someone saying to me, "pag di mo binilisan kumain di na kita kakausapin kahit kailan" hello?? and so?? it's not as if i'd die if you won't talk to me?

haaay it's so much better to be a girl, though we become irrational when it comes to few things. embrace womanhood.

oh and for the record, to all those who have asked and wondered if i am lesbo, nope i'm not. though i have nothing against them. i may have boyish interests and hobbies, i am still a girl. :D

it's just one those days when you find yourself sitting comfortably on the couch doing absolutely nothing aside from staring at the television (that wasn't even plugged on).

It just seems weird that i woke up early today to find that my parents are not home, so i thought they already went to work, so i stood up with much haste thinking that i also have to go to work today. (yeah i treat my internship as real work) but then i stopped, and said wait it's still 9 a.m., i still have a lot of spare time I'll watch powerpuff girls Z or Doraemon first at GMA7. So, i turned on the tv but there was cartoons instead there was this televised mass?? omg, today is a Sunday. my parents are not home because they went to the 7am mass! they did not wake me up because they assumed i will attend the afternoon mass because i'm too tired due to my ventures yesterday.

speaking of yesterday, i went to podium to cover an ehibit. on my way there, i was suppose to take a cab since no puv's route straight to my destination. but then there was this old woman who asked for my help where she can find Robinson's. i knew there was no other way but to walk , so i offered to walk with her. she was fun though, she talked a lot about buying onions and going to pasig. finally i found her a ride even though i arrived at podium 30 mins late.

then i decided to stop by robinson's to eat and look around the stores when it rained so hard. i got stucked inside (you know me, i never bring umbrellas) and there was this long cab lane, it'd be an eternity before i could get on one. so what did i do? i braved the rain, anak ng.. baha pala..hay badtrip...anyway i arrived at the mrt station and the trip all the way to sm fairview was just fine. but then sm was on sale! wahahaha can't help it really. i'm a sucker for discounted items hehehe.

it just feels weird that i'm not busy today. zZzzzzzZZ.. oh by the way.. (this is a korean thing na so you can stop reading na! :p)

abs-cbn will be showing it started with a kiss 2! omg although i've already seen the series, medyo r-18 siya promise! unlike ISWAK 1 mejo pang kids conservative, ung 2 kakaiba! tpos romantic princess ipapalabas din nila (oo napanood ko na din yun) i soooooo love that! un ung parang princess hours taiwan version na may halong meteor garden hahaha ganda ganda..pero ung my girl nila pwede bang i-ban?? pls.. hahaha