vacant_junk_lot (where i dump these thoughts)

Friday, March 30, 2007
11:14 AM

"..so don't you bring me down today.."

that was an excerpt from aguillera's song "Beautiful". it's weird right, it is said that we are all created equal but the world is just not fair. inequality is what constitutes life here on earth. i wonder what people get from belittling other people? does that make them any better. no, i think not. so i came up with my own theory behind these kind of people. these people are simply insecure. yes, insecurity is the root of it all. when a person cannot accept that someone is better than them, they will try the most disguised way of putting them down and that is by belittling them. or sometimes by making "lait" (yak, ang conyo ko..hehe)

sorry but right now i can't think of the term in english, so pls. bear with me if i'll keep using the word lait ok..nyihihi..(<--- weeh!)

it's alright if we lait other people for what they do, but for what they are? i don't think so. i mean, no, it's not right to lait other people but admit it, we all do this but mostly to strangers. people who we do not really know and will not meet again. after all we are just making assumptions and other stuffs, just for fun. BUT, but when it is someone you know, especially if it's your friend, well that is a different thing. i bet if it is your friend, he/she is insecure. there's no other way he can think that will make you feel down but by striking your imperfections and other stuff. well, who would forget that nobody's perfect.

i think you're getting to the bottom of what i'm saying here. i'm not really good at explaining things. anyway, i just want to say that these kind of friends (i mean in the first place, how can you consider such as friends, well sometimes the excuse is that because you are too close to each other that you can just say anything to them. ok given, i agree with that anyway, but if it is done on a regular basis? i mean c'mon what is your problem?) should be ignored when they start making lait to you (omg, that is damnest phrase i've used) just think that, this person is too insecure of me well what can i do? you'll never get anywhere doing that haha (yea with an evil laugh, but all in the mind ok!). just don't make lait him as well, remember don't do to others what you don't want others to do unto you and also because you're not insecure of him/her because there's nothing to be of.

if you got friends like this, i feel you. and i want you to take their word's as compliments. :) be happy you're great!

"keep away from people who belittle your ambitions. small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you too can become great" -Mark twain.

think happy thoughts!

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8:29 PM

SUMMER BOREDOM/ ADDICTION

oh yess the much awaited summer vacation is here..hmm..i can smell boredom..
well i'm actually a homebuddy and can find a thousand and one things to do everyday inside the house but performing routines all throughout these three months can get really boring. add up the fact that my parents won't let me go on any event.sucks big time.

anyway during such times, you could get really crazy ideas. well this post is more of like an update of how my life is doing. first, i'm really nervous of the release of grades on the net, shoot biology.. second, i am getting addicted to my latest fave koreanovela, it started with a kiss, i'm this type of person who indulge excessively to recent likings, hehe. i watched that series from 12:30 am moday till 5pm that day and rest then watched it again at 8:30pm that same day and finished at around 3:30am the following day, well of course i slept and woke up at 11:00am and proceed in watching so. then by 4:30 pm i finished whole 30 episodes. that was the only time i felt hungry so i pigged out, that meal was my breakfast, lunch and merienda. i was also too addicted with that, that i cut my hair and sported bangs haha just like the protagonist and afterward... i regret it,i hate my bangs now. i surf the internet for pics and other things related to the show.

hmm..if you're thinking right now that that is so stupid, you'll think i'm the dumbest person on earth for this, i still watch that everyday replaying my favorite scenes..hehe.. don't worry maybe after a week or two i'd stop doing that. :)

regarding my activities on my past obsessions, i bet you don't want to read it..hehe..

think happy thoughts!

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DEATH

this past few weeks,i have been confronted with different images of death.
let me enumerate them so you can at least get the picture:
1. a stabbing incident at an fx terminal,a drunk man stabbed the "barker" for not giving him a few bucks..that drunkard asshole..
2. a securtiy guard shot an fx driver for a reason which i am totally bewildered of, and since he was so smart to use a shotgun, of course the bullets passed through the vehicle's windows and went through two other bystanders across the street.. great..blood everywhere. :)
3. while riding an fx, there is no significance for adding this detail but i guess this adds color, Hotel California was being played and was singing along with it, then the windshield just cracked and broke while we are fast on the road.
4. i saw a lady with her kid, they were crossing the highway (what the?! why not use the overpass) and they got hit by a speeding black toyota corolla with plate number..nope don't remember. the girl went unconscious and i went hysterical inside the fx that woke other passengers and they thought i fell from the vehicle. they sure do got some weird imaginations too you know.
5. i saw the guy that was shot while in his taxi at commonwealth (yeah that got me late for theology class)

...so what?! these images, i do not think about these things in my waking hours but i guess they haunt me since i dreamt about these several times now already. but what is there to fear about death? we all know it's coming, just don't know when. my problem is i feel like i'm one of the people being chased by death now..haha freak! i'm too ambitious to assume that this is similar to the plot of "final destination" anyway, if i'm going to die then be it. i do not actually fear death, i fear dying without proving anything in life yet, not making anything out of it. i think that it is such a waste to die young because you haven't seen life to the maximum extent and i think it's great to die at an old age because then you'll feel that you're done with it and let your end be the beginning of someone else to see how great it is to live. well i've been talking nonesense anyway, who would be interested about death. oh im not done yet! i had another light bulb flashing, what if there was a person who was too curious about what there in the next life, and because this is something which is inexperienced, he though of a plan like his spirit will make it a point to tell living people what he is experiencing, of course he'll kill himself first but he'll make an excuse that he is on a mission of such, but i guess he'd still never find out what's there in the next life because his spirit will just keep roaming around here and never transcend you know things about unfinished businesses and other spirits will tell him, "hey stupid ass you won't get any unless you detach yourself from this world" haha ok so that was like a quickie nonsense fiction... this had been long already, too boring..

think happy thoughts!

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