vacant_junk_lot (where i dump these thoughts)

Wednesday, September 19, 2007
5:35 AM

i know this is not the right time to be posting about f-ing things, especially with the crammed up schedules..
you know me, i am strong, i don't go for the cheesy stuff. i am the fist that knocks over your head when you are foolishly doing something for "it." my friends, if you're reading these, you probably know what I'm saying. jaycee says that it's because i fear confronting such kind of stuffs, but the truth of the matter is ,even though people are now labelling me as the "hater" (which is only partly true) that i'm just really a very discreet person (o take that!) i just want to keep things to myself... and at this moment, i feel reeeallly stuuupid.. really verry stupid..

shit joyce what's up with you? you keep sticking to old things.. i told myself that i HAVE to be smart on this matter.. the problem is, i know everything, every little con..yet still i'm too damn BOBO (certified bobo) to fall for the same trick.. i can't take a step further 'coz i don't want to leave the spot without a footprint or maybe because i am secretly hoping to take the mud with me (naknampucha mud nman tlga eh noh)

i fell for that one again. I am so pathetic. i was actually making it through but this f-ing "pekopon" keeps popping in the scene!

omg..again.for the nth time, i'm making it official to STOP anything... (how weird is that? you make one same thing official several times..)

you are all bullcrap. you are the best and worst example. you ruined ideals, you distorted the good image that is why i never knew what it was and that was all i ever known. i hate you.

i hate you for making me feel stupid. or if my assumption was true, for using me. i hate you because you are so hateful. i'm not taking back a word i said. i hate myself because i never learned. all shit.

that's what i call enlightenment!

think happy thoughts!

(1) comments Saturday, September 15, 2007
6:22 AM

ok so nasa mood ako mag post..haha.. to compensate to my whining posts about how shitty school is..i'll talk about "bloggable" things..hehe eto ay mga kwentong baha sa espanya. a little amusing but what does these really imply? you do your own thinking.

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#1 umulan sa manila, so ang royal pontifical eklavu eh nagkaroon nnman ng fishpond. at ang kahabaan ng espanya naging ilog. nagsimulang magtampisaw ang mga bata. naaliw ang mga estudyante ng nasabing unibersidad at kinuhanan sila ng litrato gamit ang mga celpon (kabilang kami dun) ang mga lokong bata nag exhibition pa. nakakaaliw. nakakaawa.
#2 dahil sa baha, walang jeepney, kailangan maglakad pauwi. kakaunti lng ang matataas na lugar na hindi naabot ng baha, para makaiwas sa paglusong sa baha may mga plywood na nagsilbing mga munting tulay. ito ay gawa ng mga taong tambay lang sa kalye. tawid ka sa halagang tatlong piso. krisis. maparaan. pera yan. mautak, pilipino.

oo nga pala may phone na ule ako pagkatapos itong majupet ng kung cno man sa skul. ayun lng..hai nakaka paranoid tuloy, lagi ko check kung andun pa phone ko.
we are very much familiar with this signs: DO NOT LEAVE YOUR VALUABLES UNATTENDED. so true.. :p

think happy thoughts!

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omg..here i am again getting depressed over my grades..and my bangs (anu ba yan ang sakit sa bangs!)
I am to give an update of my uber hectic life, this time I'm not exaggerating. the semester is coming to a close, which could also mean aside from the semestral break, tons of requirements to cap off the sem. i can feel it now, all hell will break loose.
to give you an idea of how things are doing, i'll show you the list of the "to-do" things for academic reasons alone: (this could also serve as my personal reminder)
-thesis in Filipino (in Tagalog of course)
- A literary Journalism paper, wherein we do our own reserach for a good story and all that stuff
- a 52 paged glossy magazine of substance (take note of substance) that would include all original feature articles and photos of ours. also lotsa lotsa legwork to far off places and chasing VIP sources. and the publishing of course which would surely cost us some bucks. oh and don't forget the all night lay-outing (wait that didn't sound right..who cares?!)
- a special presentation of Mahabharata for our classic lit. class
- searching the archives section of every published article that might contain a relation or comparison whatsoever with any element of classic literatures. and a critique paper on that.
- a research paper on gender differences regarding their olfactory sense.
- another experiment about ESP which will be followed by another reserach paper.
- a hamster experiment, you know the kind where you train the hamster how to get out of a measly maze. why can't we just put a string around its neck and drag it to the exit. grr many people loves putting you into shit.
- an 8-paged almost broadsheet sized newspaper. since i was on the news section, I'll have to hound the news myself - - legwork.
- article due for the Journalese. (I've done this one already)

so many things to do with such a little time. we barely have four weeks to finish all that. so guys, pls don't be surprised if you happen to see me walking aimlessly on the streets.

just when i thought that was too much, there was more...
since things are getting really stressful, i decided to have my long hair cut. unfortunately, that stupid biatch gave me super short and thick bangs which i didn't ask him to do so. and so, now i feel more stressed because i'll have to take care of another things and that is my stupidly sported bangs.

at syempre ang grades ko kay patatas.. i mean, my news articles are not good enough for him. i know that i don't participate well in his class because he bores me with his egocentric discussions but...no but's. i guess i'm just not good enough. this is so frustrating, im already a junior in this course, yet still i don't seem good enough. sometimes i do, other times, not. there is no consistency, no assurance. my self-esteem is depleting. i'm doing well in other subjects but in that particular subject which is one of my majors.. oh no i don't even want to think about it. i don't want to flunk in his subject.

as of now, I'm desperately trying to relax by surfinng the net at 1:38 am..how's that for relaxation?! hai.. joycee aja!
"this too shall pass, like everything in the world.." - matchbox twenty, Last Beautiful girl

think happy thoughts!

(0) comments Sunday, September 09, 2007
4:18 AM

i finally made it here in multiply! *applause* *applause* ayun lng.. mahirap pla i-welcome ung sarili wla akong msbe.. well what the heck..i might as well customize this site, mukhang loser ung site ko wla man lng pics haha.. not today cguro..pag nakaluwag sa hectic, i mean suicidal schedule rather.. :p

think happy thoughts!

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