just yesterday morning i was eighteen, and today i'm nineteen. the last year of my teenage years. I don't want to turn 20, it sounds too old, but that doesn't mean i want to die at this age. (hindi pa pwede mamatay kasi.. *big grin*)

i woke up today to find my cellphone bombarded with birthday messages and not to mention several messages that go like this "oi tanda mo na, pa cheeseburger k namn." everyone is asking where they will head to, assuming that there is a celebration, but nope there is none. Because i'm catching up on my internship hours, i really reallly need to come to work each day to earn several hours. then i realized, woah i'm not getting any younger and im getting closer and closer to the entrance of the real world. pressure.pressure.

let me chew that for you, see it means that by the time i graduate and fortunately get a job,(fingers crossed) I'd be more concerned with my office attendance than taking the day off to stroll around with friends. no wonder when people grow old, birthdays seem like just an ordinary day wherein you get greetings and a nice dinner afterward.

and the pressure thing? well sooner or later i'll have to stop going to school and earn money. i don't think i'm that ready for that yet. my mind is still filled with barbies, and cartoons, and hanging out with my parents, and playing ps all day (and it goes on and on) in short, i'm not yet ready to go serious with life. hay, and then by the age of 23 i guess i'll need to look for a boyfriend which is so not in my mind yet unless a cute guy from south korea pops up in our doorstep, (ay ate wla ng boypren boypren kasal na toh..kung ayaw nia rape hehe)

the to-do list in life will gradually lengthen to an extent i do not want to imagine. X_X but that is life, i guess this is just another one of those birthday fits hehe and to think that i am only nineteen? maybe i was thinking too much. hay joyce just go and have fun, that's what life is about anyway right? right??

"and in the end it's not the years in your life that counts, it's the life in your years."