vacant_junk_lot (where i dump these thoughts)

Wednesday, May 23, 2007
11:08 PM

and you call yourself a friend.

i was so pissed off last night. today, while i was browsing through several friendster accounts i found this satirical prayer:

Dear Goddess, you pregnant slut who scorns all mediocre longing:

i pray that you will inspire all the compassionate rascals communing with this prayer to love their enemies just in case their friends turn out to be jerks.

provoke them to throw away or give away all the things they own that encourage them to believe that they are better than anyone else.

show them how much fun it is to brag about what they cannot do and do not have.

most of all goddess, brainwash them with your freedom so that they never love their own pain more than anyone else's pain.
- Zelle's "about me" in her profile

what the heck?! ugh, i just love that prayer, suits me well. that is my prayer for today regarding last night, although i prayed for "you" last night. i wish you get to read this and absorb this but i doubt that you could. i was so nice, kind, helpful to you all these years ungrateful bitch. you never had pure intentions, i know, you know that all along. hindi ko sinusumbat lahat to sayo pero i always did good things for you bec. we were friends. or so i thought. you don't deserve that title anymore. i finally gave up, i let everything pass way back but not this time. so, dear acquaintance, hope you do some soul searching and an honest look at yourslef. i chose not to be "another one" of those who mock you bec. i don't want to hurt you and because i considered you, once, as a friend. that's all i have to say for now. and things cannot be undone. however, i will not treat you cruely like an enemy. i pity you that's it.
before i cap this off i have one last personal prayer for you,

please, learn that insecurity is a deadly disease that kills your own soul silently.

think happy thoughts!

(0) comments Thursday, May 10, 2007
6:58 AM

THE END OF THE WORLD

waahh striking title in bold letters.. i feel like some fraud prophet here. well, i said that because my friend asked me over the phone if it's raining in our place and i said yeah because obviously it is. hehe. and he told me that it is an effect of Global warming. i asked if the icebergs in the extreme north and south are melting, and he answered that "no, its just that the end of the world is near." i kind of believed him but on a second thought, yes it is unlikely to rain during summer but aren't may rains usual? i mean it always rains on the first or second week of May. well that is a sort of urban legend, the blessed rains in May.

again, the subject of death. so what if it's the end of the world? would i fear dying? if, and only if the end of the world would come to an end and everything, evryone would die what is there to fear? we should always remember that as little waves we should not fear reaching the shore, for we are just small waves. we are not just waves, we are part of the ocean. <-morrie dude..

ok so this post was totally nonsensical. just a phone conversation and a lame bewildered thought. now i understand when people say blogging is stupid because not everything posted is worth telling the whole world. :p i'm bored....

think happy thoughts!

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"Internet generation"

I've read an article in Reader's digest entitled, Youth Gone Wired, well its about the effects of internet to youth. i agree to most of the facts presented there, let's just say it is so true. in one way, internet is good because it is an easier, faster form of communication. some students even do group projects over yahoo messenger, hehe sounds familiar eh?! also, internet paves way for self expression, you know the likes. e.g, blogs, personal pages etc.

now the bad side. internet grants limitless freedom. one can do, say whatever they can do with the internet. however, some people abuses this "freedom" and takes it to another level. this i call "wrong use of freedom." most teenagers use this to exploit themselves. unbelievably true. even 12-year-olds expose their puppies on the net to serve as bait for some pervertive, too "excited" guys. some introverts also bawl and throw all their frustrations, angst and rants on the internet. i'm not saying that they do not have the right to do so because they are introverts, i even think that it's a good thing that they get to have a sort of outlet for their thoughts or else they'll just snap and lose it. but, the negative notion here is they will be stucked to just expressing themselves over technology's gift and remain as timid as ever. this could also breed more grudges in their hearts and make them do weird things. scaryyyy..

okay, so i would not set myself aside. i, too, am an internet user. bloggers think that every thought and ponderings of their is worth telling the world. when most of the time they are not and that other people don't really care. just like what i do hehe..don't be hypocrites guys ok. oh that also includes Friendster, Myspace bulletin posters. hai at least i don't do that, what the heck guys just keep your cheesy heartbreaking stories to yourselves ok. well, i'm not surprised some studies says that the trend now is the "me, me , media." everyone wants to be a star in their own right.

last but not the least, the internet is a portal to multiple personalities. not the psycho related thing ok. you know, people uses the net as a mask and they can create a different person with themselves and live different lives. i know one story about this, freakingly weird. anyway, i think this should not be the case. this feature encourages people to live in an unreal world.

sadly, we are born in this generation. we are corks in the system, it is inescapable but this doesn't mean we don't have a choice. we can use it properly, and i mean properly. hah, i feel like an old lady making a righteous speech. yeesh. anyway 'nuff of these.

think happy thoughts!

(0) comments Thursday, May 03, 2007
3:16 AM

SOCIAL AWARENESS..etc..

di nga?! haha..it's been a while since my last post. just wanna post some rants regarding the recent news on tv. ung killer "DAW" ni Julia Campbell, shoot, sinong niloloko niya? he is totally unbelievable. kung ikaw ba killer would you confess everything even the description kung pano mo pinatay with a clear head? i mean kalmadong explanation? duh! well, that's how far money can take you i guess.

voting public, listen ya'll, kapag binigyan kau ng kandidato ng bag, shoes at notebook, iboboto nio na ung taong yun? c'mon can't we be any wiser. hindi na tayo nadala, ano mahirap ang buhay? asus, akala ko ba magaling ang mga Pilipino sa panlalamang? edi lamangan ung mga kumag na kandidatong un. kunin nio ung bngay nila tpos wag nio iboto noh. hai naku the sick and twisted value of debt of gratitude.

40 million lang...f-ing... hoi migz zubiri na feeling zorro. kumag kb? anong 40 million pa LANG ang nggastos mo? tanga kb, 1 million nga halos himatayin na ung mga taong nananalo sa laban o bawi as if secured na buong buhay nia tpos ni la-lang mo lang ang 40M? you gotta be kidding me. clearly corrupt ka men...corrupt.. (btw, source: Isang Tanong, at GMA7 yay kapuso ako noh.. hehe)

paksyet nasusuka na ako sa pangalan ni Kris sa tv... e ano naman kung pinasuso na nia ung anak nila ni James? normal naman un pwera nlng kung ginto ung gatas ni kris.. o kaya pagdede nung bata sabi niya: pwe! mami ilan na nakagawa nito sau? lasa ng kape! hehe...

so lighter side naman... current addiction ko ay: Hana Yori Dango?! the unbelievable shift from the Korean craze to Japanese.. arigato..the flavor of live... di mo gets? ok lng. i understand. hehe.

think happy thoughts!

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